uh! oh! WARNING- REAL LIFE POST!
The only thing worse than getting out of art school and realizing you need hundreds (if not) thousands of dollars to build your studio is; your equipment breaking. (after you already spent the thousands of dollars…)
So, the bad news, my torch was clogged, and had to go to the factory (Bethlehem Barracuda) for repairs.
THE GOOD NEWS! It will be back next week (Bethlehem customer service rocks!). And! This will give me some time to work on my book, and my other super secret scientific enamel projects. 😉
REAL LIFE costs too much! Selling on the Internet is not really working out these days. Luxury is not a priority during the “this economy”; to the middle class computer world….So, I am venturing out. Working with some different Galleries to establish a plan for future outside representation. I was planning it that way from the beginning, anyway. I just wanted it to be on my terms, not the “this economy” terms.
(I was faced with a stressful reality the last few months. My Husband is injured and is not working, and the bills are not going to go away. Starting today I will have to put 40 (plus) hours a week toward working another job. (A job with a regular pay check!) It was going to be a part time thing, but now it is a full time situation. Either that, or loose everything, and move somewhere warm. I am not sure that would be good for my children to experience. I do not want to give them a false reality, that giving up is good. Or, I do not want them to think Life is not Hard. Cuz, taking care of ourselves is not easy. Truth be told; my self says, “if I did not have kids, I would probably book town, for a less expensive life style.” That is not depressing. Just real. I need to accept things, and do everything in my power to make them better. Time will heal the wounds…)
I have cancelled classes I was going to take, and have given that savings to the dentist. (My children have a lot of dental issues.) I have put off my passion; my art. I feel like I live in detainment sometimes, but I am trying to stay positive. And, hoping things turn around. And, some things are turning around…
I am about to begin as secretary of GLASSACT (south east, Michigan’s chapter of the International Society of glass bead makers Guild). I am excited to get more involved in fund raising for art education, creating awareness about this wonderful glass medium, and I want to become a better communicator, and manager of this art stuff I do…
I am working on some large scale sculpture work, that is all within the walls of my studio, and I believe I will be more like a MAD scientist. Discovering things that people just do not see often. I guess I am back to being that closet Artist I was so go good at being for MANY years. Except, I have the Art blog, and the website, and the Etsy shop, and the auctions to occasionally pull thru and offer a little grocery money…I will continue to list items on line. Except, the pricing Will be more controlled, and retail. Not wholesale. I sell a lot of work for whole sale prices on line. That will stop!
I usually do not get that personal on the art blog. I guess this is really a documentation of how things really are. One thing is for sure, I am probably color coating the situation. I do not want to fool you into thinking everything is okay. I do want the best. I want you (and myself) to see that things are going to get better. We are (I am) at rock bottom. And, I am going to climb back up.
Perhaps the art blog is really about the struggle to be an Artist. Or, the struggle to support myself with funds from my art. I wish that it was not a struggle, and maybe I am doing something to make it harder than it needs to be? Do I need to start mass producing pretty little bead objects that act as only function, and prettiness? That is not my passion. My desire to create art has only been to meet my desire to express myself, celebrate moments that others can be personally connected with. The concept is important to me, not just the way it looks. I guess this is why we sometimes call it, “the monster within”.
This must be one of the vehicles I take to get to where I need to be. I’ll keep you updated on this real life post.