Looking back at my “quietly being an Artist” time period…..
In the 80’s I discovered my passion for creating art. In the 90’s I decided to make it a career choice. In LATE ’97 (After Art college) I realized I needed to purchase health insurance and build a studio. I took the best paying job I could find in 1997. (I knew it would take a while to get established.) So, by 2004 the studio was done.
All the art from this time period (my 80’s to 2004) is still in my possession today. (Except for the few pieces I sold or gave away.) Studies, mostly with pencil, some clay, some ink… The drawers and boxes of art are almost ridiculous! I am not sure why I didn’t give it away, or even try to sell it. To me, they are just studies, I guess. One thing for sure, in the back of my head, I did not think my work was good enough to sell, and I always thought “what if it doesn’t sell? How will I pay the bills?”…it became a worry, (not a productive thing for me to concentrate on). I took a job to pay my bills, and continued creating when ever I could. I could not be objective about my own art for a very long time. Not until after Art school, really. It was all personal. The older I get, the more I realize how other people can relate to my personal experiences. I have seen my work becoming more Universal. I can see it speaking to its audience now.
I was (and still am) determined on a very passionate level to create art. I have tampered with copper pipe, ceramics,cement, stained glass, bronze, paper casting…the list goes on. (Hands down, melting glass is the best. Working with glass you can do all of those techniques. You can do everything with glass; structurally and visually.) If these passionate creations can help support my family, so be it. For now, I think it is great, that at the very least it pays for itself, and puts food onthe table (usually; right now internet sales are WAY down!).
After all that, I just now realized that I am a closet Artist. (And, just imagine how many there must be?) The creation process is a passion. And I am so excited to celebrate it every single day.
I am going to be a closet Artist forever, for the rest of my life! For today, I am on line here blogging, and trying to do some family fund raising…. in real life, I am out there (after the other job, two kids, a home…), I will always be creating; I will always have a closet art stash. Some of it, maybe only I will see. Until I am gone, and it becomes antique. It would be cool if my work supports my extended family some day. (And it is really cool that I am not starving today; as my Dad says, “We are not taking part in this recession.”)
With that said, I have decided to share some more sketch book study, and some ‘NEVER been seen before in cyber space’ sculptures.
Yup! My old art is coming out of the closet, looking forward to some constructive crtiticism in 2009.
This next week is all about getting some autocad drawings done of a new lab at Michigan state University, and preparing for holiday events.
Wish you all a happy holiday season. Peace, joy, Love…
(Oh! and if you are a closet Artist…closet art can make a great Christmas gift!)